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As an agent, his clients have won multiple Oscars, made millions of dollars, and have been the toast of the entertainment industry. Greyson and his wife, Ellen, who met as teenagers, have a young daughter, Willa, and when he is able to break away from the demands of work, Greyson enjoys spending time with his daughter.

The thing is, Greyson also suffers from bipolar disorder, which has made him al Juliann Garey's first novel really packs a wallop.

The thing is, Greyson also suffers from bipolar disorder, which has made him almost manically dedicated and driven on behalf of his clients, but leaves him to unpredictably deal with the highest highs and the lowest lows, and keep them hidden from those he represents and others in the industry. It is incredibly debilitating and although Ellen supports him through these periods, the strain is becoming increasingly more difficult.

And one night, Greyson has had it. He leaves Ellen and Willa and allows his illness to take control, and travels the world—visiting Rome, Israel, Chile, Uganda, and Thailand—assuming different identities and living different lives until his illness catches up with him again.

Each time, he experiences some terrific joys and connecting with people, mostly women, and then the lows begin crushing him again, in many different ways. Too Bright to Hear Too Loud to See is a gripping, poignant, and tremendously compelling book about one man's struggle with mental illness and how it affects those around him. The book shifts between Greyson's current condition, getting ECT treatments in a New York hospital, to his travels all over the world, his relationships with Ellen and Willa, and his childhood, when he watched his father deal with the same illness that is affecting him and how his long-suffering mother handled it.

Juliann Garey is a tremendously talented writer and she hooks you into Greyson's story almost immediately. Her storytelling ability is powerful, as she makes you care for Greyson even as he is doing things you may find horrifying or disturbing. While a book about mental illness would allow an author to create one-dimensional characters and rely on stereotypes, Garey brings a fresh perspective to a somewhat familiar story.

Mental illness is a serious problem that is often misunderstood. Juliann Garey helps you see the man behind the illness, and how it affects his daily life as well as the lives of those with whom he comes into contact. This is really a terrific book. Jan 05, Gaius Leong rated it it was amazing Shelves: faves.

GOD I can't even start. I can't find where to begin. Ok relax, relax Gaius. But as I read on cautiously readying myself for any blue surprises, I find myself actually taking on the shoes and mind of Greyson whilst he narrates everything he gets a flashback of. I really can't. It's too g GOD I can't even start. It's too good. This book. You have to read it.

And all aforementioned is simply the tip of this iceberg, I'm sure you'll just stop reading and click 'want to read' and stop any spoiler-ing opinions from diluting your book-reading experience with, of course, this book. Ugh make me stop. Update 18 Dec I guess all I need to say right now of this novel is constant reminiscence and desire to reread it, although I consistently tell myself I have unending books to read..

I mean you can't just ignore such an impactful novel right after reading it within a day. You'd probably keep telling friends to read it but they could care less or won't even give seven hoots about reading anything at all. I keep rereading certain reviews and I feel I sound so gross hahaha but forgive me I'm just being as in-the-heat-of-the-moment as possible to preserve my genuineness in reviewing for my archiving purposes.

I actually hoped this novel could have been more recognized or even tread up to goodreads' awards categories. View 1 comment. Feb 08, Dorothea rated it really liked it. I believe in the power of Family. But blood is a force to be reckoned with.

Your family can. They can also give you cancer. And heart disease. Nothing kills like family. I spent a considerable amount of time in my young adult years worrying that I too would hear voices. He died from health problems exacerbated by his mental instability before his thirtieth birthday.

She was in her early twenties. Or that she washed the threshold of her doors and her money with ammonia, in an attempt to ward off evil people and spirits. Her unchecked mental illness, however, would eventually render her incapable of leaving her home, at least not alive. She died while in self-imposed exile from a world she thought was out to get her.

No husband. No children. As the novel begins, Greyson Todd, a successful Hollywood studio executive and the narrator his story, is coming out of the fog caused by undergoing electroconvulsive therapy for his severe manic depression.

It is during this treatment, and his time reflecting while in the psychiatric hospital, that we find out how he ended up there. The most compelling aspect of this novel is that Juliann Garey does a remarkable job providing a nonlinear, frame narration that, in many ways, mirrors the mental illness her protagonist is suffering from. She focuses on 3 significant periods of his life: the disappointing childhood experiences caused by his father who suffers from mental illness as well , his own failed attempt at marriage and his reckless travels around the world.

His life comes flooding back to him in disjointed, rapid firing, fragmented memories. All nearly unbearable. All a manifestation of the heredity passed down to him. And the unfortunate delusion that he was capable of being a good father and husband seemed unavoidable, because he was not normal. He was the unlucky one of his siblings. It seemed pre-ordained by virtue of his DNA that he would repeat, in some way, the cycle of dysfunction and familial ruin his father initiated.

I simply found out after the fact. Unfortunately, he lacked the mental capacity to reverse the trajectory of his tormented life. While this review mainly focuses on the aspect of the novel related to the devastating effects mental illness has on families, there is a bittersweet silver lining. It may have been a blessing that he left his child before he was able to completely and irrevocably destroy all her childhood memories of him or any chance of a future relationship, as did his own father.

By the time my sister was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, my mother was much better educated on what needed to be done to encourage her stability. Too Bright to Hear Too Loud to See is probably one of the best public service announcements on the side of mental illness.

Juliann Garey humanizes people with this condition; she takes us along for a ride that gets us about as close as possible to real, certifiable madness and the helplessness and isolation it causes. View all 4 comments. Nov 09, Natalie E. Ramm rated it it was amazing. Writers love to talk about mental deterioration, depression, and general insanity.

She gives us an intimate look into the life of a severely troubled man in first person POV , whose story seems more real than a memoir. The story itself is really hard to read in places. I definitely cried in the end. Also, for all of you writers out there, this is a must read for the craft alone!! She is better off without you; you are no good to her; you are useless; go, just go; Jesus Christ, you weak piece of shit, just pull the fucking Band-Aid off. A friend of mine, a Buddhist, monitored his reading and TV watching.

Grayson, the narrator, was inauthentic and insincere, lied when it was expedient, and used and abused the people around him. It's hard to fin She is better off without you; you are no good to her; you are useless; go, just go; Jesus Christ, you weak piece of shit, just pull the fucking Band-Aid off. It's hard to find anything likeable about him. And this was all shared in a first person narrative, so you couldn't look away.

While Grayson would clearly be diagnosed with bipolar disorder I with psychotic symptoms, I suspect he would also be diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder and polysubstance abuse. This combination is a lethal and often unattractive one, one described here in excruciating detail. As he apparently had unlimited financial resources, despite no longer working, Grayson was able to explore the depths of hell in exquisite detail. Supersensitive smelling capabilities and ultrabright-light sight receptors.

But my most super powerful sense is my souped-up hearing. I hear everything. The sound of bus exhaust. Ringing telephones and telephones that have not yet rung. Too Bright to Hear was often hard to sit through, as Juliann Garey's descriptions felt gratuitous.

Grayson was frequently despicable and often pathetic, with little light allowing us to empathize with and care for him. I felt bombarded — enough already! Maybe we, like Grayson, needed to hit rock bottom to appreciate the book's ending. He also lost his most intimate memories and the most central aspects of who he was. After the paranoia, the racing thoughts, the periods of "superpowers," he had a difficult time recognizing what his future could look like and be.

What was normal? Would being normal and stable be emotionally "flat"? Would being normal mean that he'd give up happiness? What would he have to live for? The process of asking and answering such questions can transform our lives. Putting such questions on the table saved this book. Jan 10, Claudia added it. Processing this. Did I enjoy it? Did it make me cry a lot and have anxiety?

I don't know where that always falls with stars. Full review and rating to come later. Jan 18, Diane Yannick rated it it was amazing. OK, so keep in mind I gravitate toward books with main characters who battle mental illness, BUT this one is special. Greyson,the main character, is a successful business executive who just happens to be bipolar.

Although his actions were often directed by his disease, there is way more to the storyline than that. With some tweaking, it could have stood alone disease-less as the characters were interesting and fleshed out. I wondered how in the world Juliann Garey, the author,could capture Gre OK, so keep in mind I gravitate toward books with main characters who battle mental illness, BUT this one is special.

I wondered how in the world Juliann Garey, the author,could capture Greyson's feelings with such apparent understanding and truth.

Then I read more about her life only to learn that she suffered from bipolar disorder after the birth of her second child. It took 7 years to find meds that could make her stable. Greyson claims that most people have lives thar are "bland and tasteless, never understanding what it's like to read a poem and feel like you're flying or see a bleeding fish and feel grief that shatters the heart.

It doesn't hurt that she's a really good writer who grabbed my attention and kept it throughout the story. At one point, I wanted to lower my rating because of some of the sexual fantasies but then I realized that my discomfort had nothing to do with the integrity of the book. So what if I didn't like to hear about how Greyson found hairy female armpits sexually arousing? Mental illness should not have to be homogenized for me, the reader. This is the nature of the beast, like it or not.

Greyson told us that there were many times when he didn't want to be in his own skin. We were shown those times and his cringe- worthy impulses.

The story was told in a choppy, segmented way. As Greyson endured a dozen electroshock treatments, the stories of his childhood, marriage and world travels gradually unwound.

The plot disorganization mimics his state of mind in an artistic way. It's tough to capture the essence of the story with this review.

Just trust that you will meet a complex character who is both highly functioning and wallowing in the depths of despair. It will also make you think about treatment. Not happiness, not passion, not joy For more insight, read her article in the NYT Aug. BTW, she was a successful journalist and screenwriter before she wrote this debut novel.

I know, I should start a fan club. Feb 17, Kim rated it liked it. It always makes me sad to read a book about bipolar disorder or depression. Jan 17, Jason rated it it was amazing. So there is this book.

It buzzes inside you like the bees in Greyson's chest, because, after all you can totally relate. But you read it quietly, even though it put you on edge I mean, you know, you realize.

Hug the Ativan bottle like it's your last and only coping mechanism. Deep Breath. Read on. If you can relate to any of the above mentioned words, read with caution, Dear GoodReads Reader. Too Bright to Hear Too Loud to See, even though not perfect by any stretch has the capacity to pull the rug out from under you; and in an unforgiving, ragged push and yank sort of way.

It has the capacity to—no it will, if you are susceptible to it—tear your weak coping mechanisms apart. Various writings have had this effect, but no where near this level.

The Bell Jar, the wind up bird chronicle, fault in our stars, and perhaps—in a totally different way— the room.

The only physical feeling i can compare this to is a cold, below zero new england night. Holding your breath for five seconds, you think foolishly that you can retain some splinter of warmth. This moment, the exhale, perfectly describe the effect this book had on me. Greyson's was insightful, realistic, delicate, dramatic, harsh, ridged, shallow, triumphant, etc etc. The realness to his experiences via his own internal dialog and interpretation was outstanding. His narrative was reliable and transcendent.

There is a rawness about the sentence structure, a fracturing of sentences that echos Eggers and corresponds to the dread and instability experienced by Greyson. There is a certain flatness and conciseness that resembles i never promised you a rose garden, and a poetry of The God of Small Things, or perhaps more appropriately Lithium for Medea: A Novel. The story line is one of many separate mini-series. Life growing up 2.

Full blown manic and depressive episodes for three years where life becomes unrecognizable 4. But there are all these split off story-lines. The shuttering realization that life exists beyond your own life. Then, of course, commercials ; the seam that holds each of the above mentioned units together: then, to keep up with our little theme we have going here, there are the commercials.

Most people, their feelings are… bland, tasteless. Nov 25, Beverly rated it really liked it. We do not guarantee that these techniques will work for you. Some of the techniques listed in Too Bright to Hear Too Loud to See may require a sound knowledge of Hypnosis, users are advised to either leave those sections or must have a basic understanding of the subject before practicing them.

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